Thursday, August 7, 2008

Wallowing

For the past several days, I've been wallowing in self-pity because God is not doing things the way I want them to be done. I've been angry. I'm okay with saying that because I know He can handle my anger; He knows I feel that way so why not just be honest?

Terri Clark sings a song called "I Just Wanna Be Mad," and the chorus expresses my attitude from the past several days perfectly:

"I'll never leave, I'll never stray
My love for you will never change
But I ain't ready to make up or get around to that
I think I'm right I think your wrong
I'll probably give in before long
Please don't make me smile
I just want to be mad for awhile"

I still don't like, or understand, the way He has chosen to do things in my life but I'm to the point now where I HAVE to believe that He is a good God and He really does know what He's doing.

2 comments:

  1. Amen, Sister. My sentiments exactly. It used to be so easy to believe He was good - - but it didn't even require a choice or faith. NOW - it is a decision of the will more times than not.
    Love you,
    B

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  2. Have I told you lately that I love you?? Cause I do.

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